Monday, October 11, 2010

Time to come clean

Wow what a weekend! I got to see Ben this weekend, which was entirely wonderful as always, but I also got to go to the 6th annual ladies' conference at my church. The theme this year was "Wash Day - Come Clean". I have to say that it was a day full of fun, but most of all a sweet time of God using the speakers to touch our hearts. I found so many things helpful and encouraging. We started out the day with breakfast, then there were door prizes, games, skits, a catered lunch, and wonderful singing (all on top of the speakers). Many ladies left with wonderful door prizes, but one girl left the conference with the greatest gift of all time, the gift of salvation! Praise the Lord! Well, I think that does pretty good for a quick summary, but get ready for a golden nugget overload!

The first speaker of the day was Kristen Sauder. She spoke on Psalm 51:10, "Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a loyal spirit within me." She has two sessions during the day, the first session she covered the first part of the verse, and in the second session the second part. There were so many great points that came out of this one little verse. Here is your background: Psalm 51 is a Psalm by David that he wrote following his conversation with Nathan ... You know, the one where Nathan tells him the story of the rich man who took the poor man's only lamb because he didn't want to use one of his own. Then, David gets angry at the man... and you know what happens next... Nathan tells David that he is that man. (talking about Bathsheba) This story is in 2 Samuel 12...But, Psalm 51 is a psalm where David is desperate for God's forgiveness. In the first nine verses he is asking for forgiveness for past sins (not just the adultery and murder), and then in verse ten his is asking God to create a clean heart within him. This is where it gets really good. The word that is translated "create" is the form that is only ever used of God. Therefore, David is asking God to create (which only he can do) a clean heart within him. "Create in" could also be translated "Create for". So, David wants God to Create for him a clean heart. David isn't just saying.. "Hey God, I'd like to have a clean heart please" ... David is desperate for a clean heart to be created within him, one of which only God can give. He knows that he has nothing to offer, and he can't take care of or fix his sins. God is the only one that can do that. David went to God in desperation and asks the creator of the universe to create a clean heart for him because he has nothing to give and can do nothing on his own.... I love this part....The very same power and authority that God used to create the universe out of nothing is available to us to have God forgive our sins and create a clean heart for us. All we have to do is desperately go to God and ask him to do that for us. I think that is part of what is hard for so many of us. We don't like to think that we are "desperate" for anything, but we are. We are so desperate for God, and I think we tend to forget that. We have nothing to offer that he did not first give to us, and we are nothing without him. I want to live daily knowing that I am desperate for God and I need him to create a clean heart within me. This is so wonderful: As soon as we tell God that we can't do it on our on, and we need him, he begins to work in us and do what only God can do.

Alright, as amazing as those thoughts are... I think I'm ready to move on to the second part of the verse. Just for a refresher Psalm 51:10 is "Create in me a clean heart, O God, renew a loyal spirit within me." This section will be focusing on the "Renew a loyal spirit within me" part of the verse. The renewal David is talking about in this part of the verse is a daily renewal. You know that freshness you feel when you start your day with a devotion and prayer, that daily renewal and preparation for your day. I love this too: "Spirit" can be translated breath... and "renewal" can be revive. Now, when you revive someone with CPR you breathe into them. When God created Adam, he created him with dust and then breathed life into him. We can have a daily revival breath from God. When life knocks us down we can ask God to  revive the steadfast/loyal/firm spirit within us. I love the illustration Kristen gave with this. You know when you go to a fellowship at church and you are going through smelling and getting some of the wonderful food. Well you aren't excited about the bowl or Tupperware that the food is in, you are excited about the food. We are containers or "Tupperware" for God's breath. We mean nothing; everything is about the the breath of God flowing out of us and touching others. Wow, isn't that exciting! That daily renewal of God's "breath" within us will make a huge difference in our lives. I know that I can tell a huge difference between the days that I have my "renewal" and preparation for the day and when I don't. I can usually see it in my attitude and patience toward others. I want to daily ask God to renew a steadfast spirit within me and let me be his Tupperware. I want others to see Christ in me.

Very quickly, because it is very late and I need to get some sleep, I would like to say a little something about Kristine Taylor's lesson as well. She spoke on Modesty. It wasn't the ordinary everyday modesty speech about clothing though. She spoke on Modesty of Mouth. Modesty is not just apparel, it is also in our speech and conduct. She talked about the hurt that words can cause, and I thought it was cute that she mentioned the saying, "sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me" was a lie, but its so true! Words can hurt very badly. She also mentioned that with our words we need to be life-givers and not life-takers. I love that, and I hope that I can concentrate on making it a point to be a "life-giver" and encourage others with my words and let the Joy of Jesus be seen in my presence. To sum it up: Speaking with love, tenderness, grace, and humility leads to a modest mouth.
Here are a few verses to go along with this:
  • Proverbs 22:11
  • Psalm 119:9
  • Proverbs 16:24
  • Proverbs 15:1-4
  • Proverbs 31:26
Well, I think this post is probably going to be pretty long, but I just wanted to share a little bit of what I enjoyed this past Saturday. I hope some of you will be able to get some encouragement from all of this.

Monday, October 4, 2010

Another Monday...

Well, it is Monday again. Ben is back up at Liberty, and I am already missing him more than anyone should be allowed to miss someone. I keep thinking that it should get easier, I should be able to get used to him being gone during the week ... but no matter how busy I am, how much work I have to get done, each week is another one with Ben gone. I can't express how much I am looking forward to May 14. (222 days by the way). But, I am very glad that Ben has the opportunity to be at Liberty and I am so happy that he is following God's leading into Youth Ministry.

On another note, I think my dress got here today. But, since it (or whatever is in the package) was insured the mailman wouldn't leave it at the house. So, I'll be going down to the post office after clinic tomorrow. I really hope it is my dress, because then I can work on getting it pressed for my bridal portraits! I think it is going to be so much fun to have those made. Thinking on that... I need to call my hairdresser and see if I can get an appointment for an updo that day.

This past Saturday was the "Earl Miller Sr. Memorial Golf Tournament", of which all the proceeds went toward helping send the Jamaica Mission's team on the trip this year. It was a great success and I was glad to be a part of it. God is supplying our needs!



I was driving the golf cart around so Kelly could take some pictures, and we ran into mom, Ben, and Hannah passing out waters to the golfers :)

Sunday, September 26, 2010

It's been a while!

Where to start...

Well, a lot has happened since I last updated this blog! I'm still not sure why I'm updating now; I guess I just got a bit of an urge to.

The biggest thing going on right now is probably planning the wedding, Ben proposed on July 28, 2009 (over a year ago now!) and we have the wedding planned for May 14, 2011! I have been counting down the days for a while now, and I am ecstatic. I am so blessed to have such a wonderful man in my life, and I cannot wait to see what God has in store for us. I wish that I could somehow get inside every teenage girl's head and let her know that God has one special guy out there that he created and is preparing just for her, and that he will be the perfect guy for her. I am so glad that I decided to turn over relationships to God and wait on the guy he was preparing for me. I know without a doubt that Ben is the man that God has been preparing for me, since before I was even born! It is so amazing to think that God had it all planned out, and all I had to do was wait on him to reveal Ben to me. (what a great day that was!) I am blessed beyond measure, and I am continually in awestruck by my God.

Besides the wedding, I am keeping extremely busy with school. This is the final year... and then, school is over... FOREVER! woohoo! It used to seem so far away, and now it is almost here. I am absolutely loving the Radiation Therapy program, and I can't wait to be done with school and find a job. Classes do keep me busy, and it does get a bit stressful; it is totally worth it though. OH, and Ben is at Liberty University.. he just decided to switch his major to Biblical Studies (Youth Ministry). We are starting out on a journey... one that I'm sure will continue to amaze us. I knew that God had great plans for us, and I look forward to seeing everything fall into place. After we are married, and I finish school in July, we will be moving into an apartment up in Lynchburg for him to finish his degree. I'm praying that God will allow me to find a therapy job at the hospital there, and I would appreciate all the prayers I can get! I know that God will provide for us no matter what though.

I think all of that is the biggest news as far as changes, but other things going on right now include my small photography business that I started (Hope Lauren Photography - you can search on facebook for it :P) (http://hopelaurenphotography.webs.com) and that I will be joining the Gospel Baptist missions team on the mission's trip to Jamaica this year. I am very excited about this opportunity to serve God and the people of Jamaica. I am looking forward to seeing all of the marvelous things that God will accomplish through our team this year, and I can't wait to share the stories with everyone. I am praying that God will help to prepare me and my heart to serve in whatever capacity he may lead me to serve in while in Jamaica. I want to be open and ready so that God can use me to touch someone and show them God's truth. God has been so good to me and I just want to spread the joy that he has given me. I would appreciate all the prayers I can get for the trip, and I'm sure the rest of the team would appreciate them too!

I guess that's all for now... I'll try to keep this updated a little more often :P

Proverbs 3: 5-6